.:: m0n pEt!t ::.

hmmm... I have a little bit nervous right now. Just checked out my last semester exam results via the university official website. The worst results I have ever get. Worst still, there is a subject "still in processing" and another extra-added-up subject "missing", ++" I will or probably I have started losing my confidence gradually. I am scared, not 'cuz of the poor results. At least, I still believe they are considered moderate, as they are not the best anymore. To be rather honest, I am scared of losing the Anugerah Cemerlang. Under the current circumstance, I am simply cannot fail in any of my attempts. To me, every single failure is costly. I do not afford to pay the price, so my family does. That is why I could not rely on them. Anyway, I have got myself 100% mentally prepared to accept the worst situation, just in case I really miss the goal this time. Still, wishing for having the CGPA3.67 or above for the last semester. May God Blesses Me with All ...

we do not need the best atmosphere of dining venue. Instead, we always ask for the appetizing food. Once again, the food hunters aka Pelangians were set out on the Saturday night, to hunt for the delicacies. And the theme of hunting was SEAFOOD . Hmmm... yummy yummy~!! Taman Perling, a place I am familiar with..., only for the routes to Berjaya driving centre. ++" Never thought that we could actually find a seafood restaurant like THIS in Taman Perling. Worst still, it was a long journey and not to forget, scary as well. There is a path which street lamps are unavailable. Bushes and trees are found along the path. Exactly like a scary movie scene. ++" well, note that the night is worse than this. since the restaurant is considered located in a suburb to me, I was surprised to see those S'pore cars at the place, especially when we came to the wrong direction/restaurant which is located just beside the exact venue. Ah Lam is actually beside Asli ++" there was no more t...

the alarm rang at 5.25am. Since then, I was simply laid down on the bed tiredly. Hmmm... this is the very first day of holidays. 2 weeks of holidays, how am I going to spend it? ZH did asked me the same question yesterday. Basically, I think it will not be boring since there are many exam papers which awaiting for me to mark it. At the same time, my new semester will be started on 1st June and there are 2 assignments which I have to complete it as fast as possible. as the holidays approaches, the Joggers-cum-colleagues are going back to their hometowns. However, one of the Jogger may not come back here again after the holidays. Well, as his colleague, he and I received the news yesterday, right before we returned back to home. His application of returning to his hometown, Sarawak has been approved. In the car, he was so happy of it. Frankly speaking, I do feel happy for him 'cuz his wish is finally come true. But I do feel sad too 'cuz of the parting. Hmmm... people always say,...

m0n pEt!t's To-Do-List finish reading the Holy Bible -- Revelation part upgrade my english level remove the cotton tree hunt a big box in order to keep my books simply have a trip to S'pore sing K jogging re-watch The Passion of The Christ haircutting supposed to have a haircut on tomorrow evening, but I did it today. Kinda contented with the current shorter hair. I will probably take some photos of it later. There is always an opportunity. well, have much of things want to share. However, do not know where to start with. Anyway, someone is going to leave me. Somehow, the current mood is not that good by the way. For sure I will miss him for some days. Hmmm... be the sorrow angel under the lonely moonlight, in such a silent night...

less than 72 hours to welcome my another holidays. ++" Anyway, I prefer the coming holidays than this semester break. Needless to say, who does not like the day when you do not need to work? hohoho... ( = By the way, my new semester will be started on 1st June. And the assignment questions have been printed out few days ago. Hmmm... will study hard for coming semester too, since I would like to enjoy the benefit by having the fee waived. Oh yeah, since my fee is waived from the coming semester until the day I fail to maintain my results ( choiii... touchwood~!! ), mostly I will refund the fee which I have actually paid to the university, in order to buy a new digital camera. hohoho... Guess what, I have strong feel of DREAM COMES TRUE . =D got the photo which was taken on the Teacher's Day, found that my face is actually in round shape. ++" Well, I have spent some time in front of the mirror to observe the shape of my face, almost everyday. Why? Just to make sure I will f...

临睡前 想做一个忍了很久的独白。。。 又或者是 临睡前的告解 我变了 在社会沉沦了三年的我 。。。。。变了 在这三年走来的光景 都在脚步下留下了我变了的鞋迹 鞋迹能够被磨蚀去 我却无法变回最原始的自己 我变了 没有了从前逛街购物的冲动 没有了从前好管闲事的念头 没有了从前喜爱出外的好动 没有了从前爱出风头的举动 就连玩个MSN 也变得不想与人沟通 。。。。。变了 就像在巧克力上洒下咖啡粉一样 全变了个味 不是吗？ 现在 有事没事 就拿“理性”作为话题的内容 有事没事 就搞点自闭、心情低落的小动作 有事没事 就呆在家里面壁思过 在高三朋友的聚会中 话题明显少了很多 互动也变得生疏了许多 之间的距离仿佛被拉开了许多 是地理的关系 还是我变得太多？ 变得她们无所适从 话不投机三句多 圈子不同 理念不同 他们终究不是那群能够聊到通宵三点的老朋友 坚硬的石头 也会在恒久的水滴下多了个洞 莫叹脆弱的人心在大环境的蹂躏下 变得更加软弱 语毕 静待下章

it is 0017. I do not intend to stay up late. Moreover, I am sleepy right now. However, the current weather is merely too hot for me to get into bed. So hot... Every single body movement could make me sweat like hell. ++" How to get myself chill?

I am greedy for delicacies. I always be. It is a fact that most of the friends know it. I cannot live without food. And probably that is the reason why I always forget that I should not eat too fast when I had been starved for a long period. well, it is a bad-and-hardly-kick habit, I should say. Once the delicacies are put in front of me, I would consume it right away, regardless I had actually been starved for a long period. And the consequence I have to bear is serious. The whole stomach will be in pain for an hour or more than that. The digestion will be slowed down as the stomach seems to have malfunctioned. Also, the wave of nausea will come over me immediately. I was suffering from the malfunction of digestive system just now. And I am feeling better now. Luckily, I am fully-recovered after an hour. God blessed. Hmmm... moral behind the story is, remember not to skip any meal, not to let myself to be starved for a long period~!!

the brother has finally complete his degree studies and waiting for his convocation. Simply cannot wait to take the photo of him when he is wearing the graduation hat. The memorable moment is coming soon. Woohaa. well, today is another tiring day. Though back to home at around 2.30pm and had a little bit of napping, but it seems insufficient to me. Anyway, will try to sleep more in the coming 3 days of public holidays. okay, today is actually Teacher's Day and also the old mama's birthday. 2 celebrations in a day...BRAVO~!! I am a strict teacher. It is contented if the pupils never curse me to die. ++" So never think of will receive any present from them. However, I still received some presents from the pupils, particularly those who used to scold and cane by me in the past. They are forgetful. And it is better for them to be forgetful sometimes. ++" The presents including the roses, greeting cards, pen, and a necklace. Not to forget, a 4G thumb drive from the PIBG. L...

I am still awake, yet I am truly tired. However, just chatted with TSL via phone call. And the mood now is much more better. I always believe that there is telepathy between she and I. Everytimes I feel down, for sure she will come to me. And there is no exception this time. Well, the conversation between she and I will not be public-revealed. That is a secret between she and I... PERIOD.

noted that I am not here to spread any good news in this post. And I will try not to demotivate any individual. Probably it would be better if you treat it as a confession by me. I am negative and depressed this week, or perhaps since the more earlier time. It is kinda ridiculous to say that I have not yet find the root of depression. It might be money, family, career, studies, public relation, stress etc. Every little things seems to be related with my abnormal behaviours recently. The colleague-cum-only-listener I had seek for, Ming Shing told me that people may get used with their personal problems, and in the end they will forget and unable to treat it as the reason anymore. Am I one of the people who can either get used or forget the problems gradually? Or am I actually shun myself and run away from facing the problems all these while? well, last night, right before the dinner time, the bomb had just landed on the ground unexpectedly. I vent my anger on the old mama who was shoute...

m0n pEt!t's To-Do-List finish reading the Holy Bible -- Revelation part upgrade my english level remove the cotton tree hunt a big box in order to keep my books simply have a trip to S'pore sing K jogging re-watch The Passion of The Christ haircutting as a seed, it is strong and perseverance. as a flower, it is pure and simplicity itself. what if human beings could be like it, how good it would be... how long the Myanmar's authoritarian regime continued to bar most foreigners experienced in managing humanitarian crises from reaching the survivors? blossoms indicates the beginning of new life... and also the ending of life on the other hand. nothing stays forever in this world. like the ocean which shapes them, coasts are a dynamic environment with constant change. and we are all the fragile human beings, do keep in mind, people do change. we change. as you sow, so you reap. the every single fruit of labour is always the sweetest. yesterday evening, the cotton tree had been ...

I am not sleepless right now. Instead, feeling kind of deadly blue. Perhaps, I had consumed too much of chili today. ++" Keep replaying the Korean song which I feel fairly nice. It is too bad that the imeem.com unable to stream till the end, in the end I play the song by YouTube since I could not download it from P2P also. Well, share the song with you guys. Listen to the music instead of watching the video. Not to forget, there is a flaw in the ending of song. the tears were falling across the cheek silently when I closed the eyes, after the phone call. you will never know that I am crying when I am walking under the heavy rain.

feel contended after filled myself up. Went to the oral dental clinic before the high-tea period. Supposed to wear the oral braces today. But the dentist has decided not to fix it right away, due to an essential issue. No doubt! The aligned tooth has really giving me and also the dentist a lot of troubles. Well, according to the dentist, the aligned tooth is now in a lying position. It is totally useless to wear the oral braces when the upper part tooth is perfectly press on it, particularly when my mouth is shut or biting/chewing. In other words, the aligned tooth will never be straightened up when there is a pressure from the above part. And that is what I meant, in LYING POSITION . It took me some time to fully understood what he meant by showing me the teeth model which was moulded on the previous appointment. By the way, that was my teeth model. Wondered my teeth is really that ugly as the moulding or not ++" Anyway, no matter how ugly it is, I will try to get it back as a co...

2008, 6th May. the day after I had extracted the last 2 teeth. As usual, Tuesday is my busy day. Besides the 7 lessons out of 10, I have to carry out my duty as the leader of "guardian angels" too. In other words, teachers have to ensure the pupils' safety and keep them in order. And due to all these reasons, I would treat it as a cursed day if there is a meeting on that day, particularly during my precious 3 lessons. That said. The cursed day had really came. The headmaster was announced to have an emergency meeting immediately, and it was perfectly during my free lessons. The so-called emergency meeting was actually a gathering to reprimand the teachers. Anyway, it was not the worst thing to me. Spent an precious hour to attend such a so-called meeting instead of having my lunch when I was so hungry, did annoying me. Every second counts, probably the headmaster does not understand the meaning of it. back to home at around 3++pm with the presence of Ming Shing. She wante...

hmmm... well, old mama and I did not go out for dinner. Nor I give her a treat. Though it sounds funny, but I really have to explain here. I had been told that she had been eaten after I was get ready to eat out. Okay, end story. talk 'bout something else since I am already here to blogging. Hmmm... today is also an anniversary to me. It is special as I will never celebrate it. I am trying to forget, but the more I wanted to forget, the more I bear in mind... Shall I bury and seal everything which related with the anniversary in my dream? Or let nature take its course, just let it be?

the 58-year-old mama has to work on this special day. No holiday for her. 12 working hours, daily. Weeks ago, she started rant to me. She is tired. She needs rest. I wish I could help her, but she refused my aid. Somehow, I knew the reason, 'cuz I am a girl... Could not remember the exact year she works as a receptionist in the Golden Court Hotel. 5 or 6 years ago? or 7? Since then, she is hardly to go out with us. Hardly have the chance to chat with us. Hardly have the time to spend with us, and the most sarcastically fact is that we are living under the same roof till now. 2006, 30th Sept. The 58-year-old mama broke her femur. Stayed in the hospital for 2 months. With the aids of church-mates, she came back home in Dec. There was a morning when she woke up, she tried to unlock the door, but she fell down in the end. She cried. And I witnessed it while I was helping her to stand up again. The very first time I felt that she was helpless... After the operation, she begins to deal w...

just make this post as short as possible... My life was totally hectic lately. And no doubt that I am completely tired right now. Completely not in the right mood to blogging about the hectic life I was leading recently. Well, there is always probability that I would do it in days later... So, goodnight to all of you and sweet dream~! ( =

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what else could be more wonderful than hear the replying from God after the prayer? Fee waived~!! My long-awaited good news indeed. Should I celebrate it? hohoho... few minutes ago, received a call from OUM main campus which is located in KL. The Anugerah Cemerlang form will be re-posted to me. Yeah, re-post. The mail was posted by PosLaju. The postman left my place with the shipment when I was not around. And due to my doltish personality, I did not collect the shipment within the 14 days. Anyway, I am simply in no time to delay anymore as I had been told that the other nominees have all return back the forms. Just hope that the shipment will be delivered to workplace smoothly and I can return it back before Friday. Not to forget, today is WEDNESDAY ...

went to the uni to collect 2 modules by bus, in the morning... freaking hell sweltering hot morning~!! However, the bus was delayed as usual, and I was forced to take a cab to the destination. I was grabbed the opportunity to talk to the Pengurus, about the Anugerah Cemerlang which is rewarded to those whom get CGPA3.67 and above in the previous semester. As I mentioned in the earlier post, I have met all the requirements but the person-in-charge never contact me, nor give me an explaination by mail. At the end, the Pengurus gave me a sarcastic remark while he does not know I got the perfect CGPA4.0 in the previous semester. Anyway, the remark, i.e. YOU ARE NOT THE BEST has greatly inspired me somehow. According to him, not every single nominee could get the Anugerah Cemerlang. There is limitation. In other words, I am the unlucky nominee. If I really want to have the fee waived, I have to be the best among the best~!! Wow, sound cool huh? BEST AMONG THE BEST... Now, that is my new t...

since I have paid the course fee, RM800 for coming semester yesterday, intended to go to uni to collect the modules. However, only realized that the bro has drove the car to his uni after I had cleaned up myself. > m0n pEt!t's To-Do-List finish reading the Holy Bible -- Revelation part upgrade my english level remove the cotton tree hunt a big box in order to keep my books simply have a trip to S'pore sing K jogging re-watch The Passion of The Christ haircutting was sobbing uncontrollably from beginning untill the end. Tense muscles around the eyes made me unable to blogging last night. And also the running nose after the cry. Yeah, had re-watched The Passion of The Christ yesterday when every single family member was not at home during the evening. Cried like a new-born baby. Did I mention before, it is the only movie which could make me cry from the very beginning until the show is ended? Anyway, the essential issue is not how long did you cry during the show... May, a sig...

hardly to believe the bro has to attend his tutorial on this Labor Day. And it is harder to believe the bro is bloody hell good in putting an act. Last night, the younger bro was strictly lectured by him as the younger bro was using his personal computer to play DOTA. Well, I have to declare something here before I continue the story. As the bro was busy in his graduate thesis which is actually an IT project, it is seriously discourage to use his personal computer. When the time the bro saw the younger bro was playing DOTA by using his computer, the war began~!! soft-tempered bro V.S. hot-tempered younger bro I used to know the bro is a soft-tempered person. Seldom he shows his emotion on the face, moreover to get annoyed. But last night, he was irritated against the younger bro and showed his intolerant over what the younger bro had done, by saying that " I spent almost a year to process it, how could you just simply vanished it when you are knowing nothing at all? " Right...

m0n pEt!t's To-Do-List finish reading the Holy Bible -- Revelation part upgrade my english level remove the cotton tree hunt a big box in order to keep my books simply have a trip to S'pore sing K jogging re-watch The Passion of The Christ haircutting it feels great to be utterly sweaty sometimes, especially when you are feeling down. Well, noted that I am not hinting that I am feeling down. On the contrary, life seems to be that soothing after the semester break has began. Okay, just cut the crap. Went to jog with colleagues in this early morning. Supposed to wake up at 5.50am, however I had set the alarm for 6.50am. Luckily, I was in totally sober at around 6.15am and wondered why the alarm bell had not ring yet. Then only realized that I was actually overslept. > a new RealPlayer software was installed in the computer. It looks great and the sound is freaking hell good. Meanwhile, found out that the design of the RealPlayer is slightly similar with the MSN.