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2019年11月28日…… 本来会是他的生日。或许是胎教太成功，或许是太喜欢游泳，或许有太多的或许，他并没有按照医生的计划来到这个世界上，而选择继续与我脐带相连。 超出预产期其实没带给我太多困扰，但也不免会疑惑怎么都没有临产征兆。说实在的，我挺喜欢胎动的奇妙感觉。那种只有身为妈妈才能体会到的感觉，那么的独一无二，多么的无人能取代。倘若可以，我倒希望他们继续待在我的肚子里。相信我，倘若可以……！ 距离预产期已经超过了3天，毫无临产症状。我依照医生之前的指示，在第四天，也就是2019年12月1日，回到政府诊所复诊。当天风光明媚，我的心情也相当愉悦。专门跟进我的孕况的护士见到我后，免不了好奇地问：“Belum bersalin ke？” 在政府诊所看诊讲求的是耐心，等上一、两个小时是再寻常不过的事。好不容易，轮到我时，医生细心地为我照了超声波，随后表示腹中的羊水有些过多，建议我立即到中央医院进行详细检查。我们夫妻俩并没有因为医生的话而感到慌张。相反地，我们还能够一家三口先到附近餐馆填饱肚子，再将大儿子寄放在外婆家后，才前往中央医院。与大儿子挥别的那一刻，大约是下午二时，我始终都没料到那晚我会回不了家。 抵达了中央医院，还是离不开“等”。漫长的两小时后，终于轮到我接受检查。基于上一胎所留下的阴影，我对内检产生了莫名的恐惧，心中不断地祈祷希望不会遇上需要内检的情况。很幸运地，我进行了几项检测，独缺内检这个部分，心想：我逃过了这劫。然而我却被要求留院观察。这个消息对我而言简直晴天霹雳。 话说回来，我在中央医院进行产检并非第一次，但在那栋古色古香，建于一世纪以前的建筑物里进行检测倒是头一遭。我坐在轮椅上，年轻的华裔男医生缓缓地推着我，身旁还跟着一名孕妇。她和我一样是要去接受检查的，可待遇就大大不同了。 *暗爽*   或许是我太重了，或许是产房到照超声波的地点位置距离太远了，或许有太多的或许，医生推得有些上气不接下气。他那喘吁吁的样子还挺逗趣的，尤其是要通过无数扇沉甸甸的门，一边要使劲儿地把门推开，一边还得顾上这名体重接近 70kg 的待产妇和另一名孕妇。那名医生也算得上是了不起了。 年轻医生将我转介给另一名印裔专科医生后便先行离开。看着眼前地板数不尽的绿色小砖块、陈旧的建筑风格以及完全搭不上调的高科技仪器，我仿佛置身于电影情节里所谓的秘密基地，准备进行一些不可告人的科学试...

 去年的今天本应出来看世界，却依然选择继续泡澡游泳…… 【待续】

Thirst is defined many ways, with the most literal definition being the subject of any of those classic scenes where the protagonist is in a desert and seeks an oasis of water to save their lives. oh yes, it happened again. I totally stopped blogging for a few months. I sort of go through this kinda thing so often, and have for the past year or so. Sometime it is simply life getting hectic, sometimes it is me forgetting or just unable to, and sometime I have just been plain slacky, you see. I think, however, that all of these point to something that I myself struggle with at times, and that is what I define it as "thirst for blogging". And here, I talk 'bout THIRST as an intense desire to have or do something. I used to blog on a regular basis. That said, my blogging thirst can vary from day to day, week to week, even by months or years. Truth to be told, staying thirsty is not easy, particularly you never want to be like this. I definitely have had...

我的梦想很多很多 这边一个 那边一个 最大的一个 就是足迹遍布世界各个国家 学校假期 我多么期待啊 伦敦、巴黎、纽约、新西兰 什么时候才能到那些地方 啊 好想好想 我真的好想到那些地方 看看美丽风景 体验当地文化 总有一天 我会实现梦想 我会像其他朋友一样 到每个国家走走看看

it has been more than a year I did not voice out the inner feeling of myself. Weird and odd indeed. Every thing seems to be hidden depth inside the heart and the soul. Who knows what am I thinking or worrying of all these while? Happy Lunar New Year...!! the very first entry in year 2014. what am I expecting for after a long period of resting and abandoning this 'lil bloggie? are you there, my faithful readers? truth to be told, bloggie seems to be a platform or a channel for me to shout out the thoughts of my mind. On the contrary, I failed to express myself in speeches. How sadly it is. not going to make any promises of updating this bloggie occasionally. It is a tough job indeed. But... I would like to seek back the old interests of mine. To brighten up my life. To inspire or enlighten the current circumstance. Oh well... I am not sick of life, sincerely. But the urge of seeking a meaningful life is freaking strong. And it makes me wanna do it now. That is why I am ...

"Why TODAI? Today is TODAI." -- the slogan of Todai which makes no sense. According to  Elmer Dills, famous Los Angeles food critics, once described Todai as "The Mother of All Seafood Buffet". I doubt it, however. Todai is an international seafood and sushi buffet restaurant which is located in The Shoppes, Marina Bay Sands. I went to there in this afternoon. With a humble entrance of Todai restaurant, I expected there are plethora of food selection to satisfy my taste bugs and stomach. But apparently it did not reach my expectation. What a disappointment to dine in there. from the information I obtained, either from the official website, blog reviews, or the compliments of the foodies, Todai is kinda highly-recommended buffet restaurant to have a wonderful seafood feast. However, it failed to make me feel so. the colleagues and I were having lunch there. We got ourselves all the way from JB to S'pore in order to taste the Alaskan snow crabs and oy...

15 minutes to go, before we approach to another grand new day. Yes, Thursday is coming soon. Time nor tide waits no man. It seems like the holidays are going to be ended soon but still, there are so many incomplete to-be-accomplished-tasks awaiting for me to complete with. hmmm... let us have a summary of what I had been done over the past few days. 15 August, Wed I guess I was too delighted as I could not remember what I had actually done that day, after the school. But I remember clearly that I went out yum cha with Mr. Kenny T. at night. Had a nice chat with him. =D 16 August, Thurs had a substituted tuition class in the morning and another tuition class in the evening. But what was I doing that night? Could not remember again. ++" Am I suffering from a short term loss of memory? 17 August, Fri same as Thursday. Had a substituted tuition class in the morning. The travel-mates-to-be aka colleagues came to my house at around 3pm to print out some personal docu...

on the first day of holidays, I decided to post a new entry. Practice makes perfect. After a fairly long period of unwanted-resting-in-blogging, I aware that the skill of blogging has deteriorated gradually. Fortunately, however, the enthusiasm of blogging is always there, in the depth of my heart. It could be considered as an interest or a platform to express myself. As well as a channel to share my happiness and bitterness with all the readers. Thus apparently I need some time to revive and avoid myself from being so inactive in blogging. as London Olympic has came towards a perfect end, hereby I declare that the first and only camera I have has to end its service too. Yes, the Pentax Optio M50 . It spoilt.  4 years ago, in order to catch the precious moment of the brother's commencement, I bought it. Hundreds or thousands of photos and videos had been taken in the 4 years time. The very last photo was taken in S'pore, 4 months ago. it may be an opportunity to ch...

half an hour before I hit the hay. Am decided to write in order to calm my thought. Yeah, say No More to the seemingly never-ending work. I need some rest, mentally. As the school holidays approaches, the impetus of having a real good rest is so strong.  too much to share. But have no idea where to start with. How self-contradictory I am. Well... my sleeping eyes are partially open right now.  good night, readers. 

feels sucks. woke up with a moody feeling. Is it a pre-returning-maktab-syndrome? Or 'cuz of some other silly reasons? God knows. went to SMK Infant Jesus Convent yesterday. To attend to a Teacher's Day-fellowship which was organized by the school. It was a 'lil surprise to meet the secondary school History teacher, Mdm K.J. Mary there. And 2 SMTP's teachers as well. Mdm K.J. Mary was the orator of fellowship. Inspirational speeches were coming out from her mouth. 'course most of them are the Words of God. "do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe." Philipians 2:14-15 YES! Do everything without complaining or arguing. But it seems too difficult for us to reach it. All of us are the sinners. We point out people's mistakes easily and find it so hard to reflect our own mist...

pictures say a thousand words. Undeniable. I think this explains why most of the bloggers intend to include pictures in their posts. And apparently I am the one of them too. I spent days to figure out the way of reorganizing all the photos. Spent hours to transfer the photos from a thumb drive to another. Meanwhile I was busy in uploading the photos. by the way, something amiss in my bloggie. Something related with the photos. **chiang chiang** the new slideshow. The previous slideshow is under observation for certain issue currently. So I decided to change a new image hosting website to keep all my photos. Seems like the image hosting website did a good job in keeping all my photos. well... time to sleep. I am freaking exhausted today. Goodnight and enjoy viewing. =D

what a rainy day. It ruined my plan. Yeah, it was.  I planned to jog this evening. But thank to the rain, I got the chance to take a nap instead of jog. Hohoho... frankly speaking, the urge of jogging is freaking strong recently. The very last time I went for a jog was 'bout half a year ago. At Taman Sultan which is currently closed for public. No doubt. It has been half a year. Could you imagine how badly I miss the greenish land, blueish sky, fresher air? That explains why I try so hard to reduce my workload, particularly after my practicum period. Thank God for letting me realize that the quality of life is much more important than money before I completely become a money-slave. I am not that materialistic person. Money is important, but it does not mean everything to me. Take note. hohoho... oh yeah, not to forget... I am here to revive this bloggie as well. =D decisions have been made. It is all 'bout actions. And also the attitude and the urge of CHANG...

I have a dream. To blog every night, right before I go to bed. To finish all my work before the day ends. To read some books before I sleep. To jog on the greenish field, breath in the freshest air. To have a quality time spend with my family and friends. I have a dream. To lead a better life. To simplify my life.

又是随性的一篇…… 我已失去了言语表达的能力 也恐怕字里行间也无法描述此时此刻的心情 我想静下来 惟思绪仍像浪涛般…… 我不晓得究竟『恐惧』占据了我人生的多少百分比 但它绝非小部分 起码我能够肯定这点 思虑了好久 还是没办法将心事流露于字迹中 埋吧！ 就埋在我心深处吧！

firstly, I am busy and people are all knowing it. secondly, my time is kinda fully occupied... and people are all knowing it too. thus it results that I am getting lesser time to blog... and this is apparently not what I wish to happen. Struggled and struggling in "squeezing" the time. However life seems beyond my control, it seems that I have to learn to accept it and to be adapted to it. Ain't you feel so? anyhow I believe that a journey begins with the first step. I wanna be a proactive person in keeping my bloggie alive. Yeah, at least update it once a month. I really wanna make it happen as it had been jotted down in my to-do-list for this year. No lies. so... what should I write in this entry? A new entry for this year. A new beginning. A reminiscence 'bout what I had done on last year? Hmmm... too much to be told. So I decided to drop the idea. I rather look forward as life goes on, always. went to watch a movie, Underworld: Awakening. An Ameri...

我回来了！ I'm back to blog, people! 相隔近4个月，终于“甘愿”回来blog了…… 这会是随性的一篇 想到什么就打什么的一篇 原本计划利用一个星期的假期时间 好好地blog一篇美食篇 事实证实我没办到 是忘了怎么blog了吗？ 还是忘了自己的blog style？ 现在距离午夜一点钟只仅仅相差十来分钟 必须速战速决 美食篇…… 就下次吧 blogger换了新面貌 还在适应当中 15分钟前还在外头呼吸自由空气的我 此刻正在调适心情 准备为明天而战 大家都说吃甜食会让心情舒畅些 所以刻意吃了许多糖份较高的宵夜 确保明日万无一失 假期中 有意无意地忘记了许多的事 就连明日将进行的校务会议也忘了 还是经由老师提醒 才猛然想起 上次的会议 因为讲师视察教学 全校就只有我 侥幸逃过目睹那在会议中上演的“宫廷革命” 或许是年纪大了 对这类的纷纷绕绕感到十足的厌恶 请记得 当我裹足不前的时候 请不要强行地将我牵扯其中 别让我亲眼目睹人性的丑陋 因为我不想…… 让撒旦在一旁偷笑 纳闷…… 明天的会议又会是什么情景呢？ 整车的书 只改了4叠半 还有一堆paper work，assignments 也被我搁在一旁 抱歉了 我只想放假 大脑思维、手脚肢体…… 都哀求我让它们放假 假期的无所事事 对我而言 ……真的很重要 放假期间 整理了睡房、书桌，外加天井和电脑桌 给自己设计了一个灵修的好角落 满意！ 再也没借口对灵修说不了 还在为自己规划人生目标 忙！ 之前真的是太忙（盲）了 差点看不清方向了 假期虽结束了 仍会 继续沉淀 想想……

Google Inc. is pleased to offer you a job as a Customer Solutions Engineer. We trust that your knowledge and skills will be among our most valuable assets. yes! yes! yes! it is a Google mail. Found in my mailbox in this evening. When I back from tuition class. All the way from Hong Kong. God knows how madly I am in love with Google. That explains why I was nearly scream like hell when I saw the 6 colorful alphabet letters on the envelope. however what has written in the letter is not what has stated above. It was a thank you gift from Google. in fact I dreamed of having a job in Google and I always do. It could be a dream but I know dream may come true one day. Who knows?!

多少人晓得正常的工作时间为一周45小时？ 在这样的复活节，边观赏着《红星大奖2011》，边改着一本本的功课，我深知这是个既没工钱，又没完没了的超时工作。金钱换不了时间，更别说是没工钱的牺牲。 怎么能够用金钱来衡量责任呢？我曾经为此感到困惑。直到现在，我依旧对检测责任感的准绳感到疑惑。可换个角度想想，与其将大部分时间只投注在批改作业上，挪用自己的时间去做自己喜欢、想做的事，应该不算是罪过吧？ 我不甘心每个工作日的夜晚、每个星期的周末都还得望着一堆堆的簿子，默默地接受着一直改，拼命改，可又怎么都改不完的结果！我更不甘心眼巴巴地看着大部分时间都被簿子作业占用，而逐渐地将自己喜欢做的事都搁置一旁，不加理会。今晚，我出奇地想念我那许久都没更新的部落格。我甚至忘了最后一次安静地看书，通过书籍自我提升的时候。然而我更希望周末能够放松心情，懒洋洋地度过…… 啊…… 看着身旁还没改完的书，好恨！我的生命、人生…… 真的不该让作业簿子给埋没！ 心头萌起了这个念头 —— “我的时间，由我掌控！45小时，明天起行动！”

Google always surprises me. With its bloody powerful and user-friendly products. today Google has launched a grand new product. Called Gmail Motion. Wow... Introducing a new way to interact with Gmail – using your body! Gmail Motion can help you improve the way you interact with your email.  my curiosity killed the cat. Wondered how to interact Gmail by using body. So I clicked on the link in order to find out more. I was so excited and wanted to know so much on how exactly the Gmail Motion works. Thus I skipped the videos. And tried to install it. while looked at the screen as Gmail Motion was installing, I knew there must be something that would inspired me. and 'course Google has never disappointed me... ++" this is the lamest nonsense I had today. But it did put a smile on my face. What else should I ask for? anyhow...  Happy April Fools' Day to all of you. it is not that bad to be a fool once in a while. =D

by glancing at the title of this post, obviously it tells that the teacher training college has changed its name to Institut Pendidikan Guru Malaysia Kampus Temenggong Ibrahim (IPGM-KTI). was sitting for the exam of semester yesterday. Have a faith of passing the exam, somehow. Hope to complete the course as soon as possible, but at the same time I am deeply knowing that the holidays were fully occupied by the training courses. It makes my life so meaningful. I cannot imagine how bored the holidays would be if the training is completed. Oh dear... how self-contradiction it is. anyway, there is something we can never deny. Time flies. This is the third year of the training. One more year to complete it. Things are going better after I made myself a promise that to get used to the life there. Was compelling myself to be more friendly to the others and most importantly, smile more. Hence here comes the result sheet. I think I have survived from it and am fairly satisfied with the outcom...