"Jie, I'm off to Kulai now..." a trembled voice came from the younger bro in the evening. Yeah, he was giving me a phone call right before the tranference to Kulai general hospital. Something was missing. The old mama was not with him at the moment. The matter of timing, I should say...
well, he was in pain and cried while answered my phone call. And I am not going to tell the old mama 'bout it. Hard to imagine how a 20-year-old teenager could endure all the toughness during the more-or-less-2-hours-long journey alone. The feels of numbness are all over my heart now. Cannot even shed a single tear in front of the old mama, in case she will be more depressed. But I do feel like the heart is bleeding, seriously bleeding.
though the elder bro had visited the younger bro right after the work, yet it did not calm me down. I have to chill up myself now.
may God...
cease the tears of younger bro in the late of night.
console his soul as we are not with him now.
minimize the feel of pain.
give him courage and all Your love.
Amen
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